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It's vent art, traditional stuff.

I'm tired of putting effort into vent art, it makes me feel bad in the future when I look back on it, how much effort I wasted on negativity.

It's a picture of Elska, once again having to deal with my emotional outbursts. He's never OK, but pretends he is. He's not strong enough to lift me up sometimes, emotionally speaking.

Elska, I've tried drawing him all morning. But all the sketches just make me feel miserable. He's jumping off a rooftop; drinking a cocktail of vodka and bleach; trying to tie a noose; sticking his head in an oven; or even regretting his decisions that make him happy.

I have IRL problems right now that I can't really talk about, I just feel hopeless. Nothing is really looking up anymore here. I'm just too worried, or not worried enough. 

Vent art is not me wanting attention- I honestly don't know where else to say this. I just needed to get it off my chest. I went to sleep with a bad feeling, and woke up feeling depressed.

Sorry guys, I'm just trying to get it out somewhere instead of IRL.